music for the sunshine.

Django Reinhardt;

excellent belgian gypsy jazz.

(1910-1953)

download here.

seek wisdoms in the trees.

I got a lovely new bicycle. It's a 1964 Schwinn cruiser in a beautiful copper-tone color.

We drank beers and smoked cigarettes on the front porch all night

and prince played on cassette. 

It felt like summer time all over again.

I can't wait for it to be this way everyday. 

Afterwards we were riding back to your apartment and you told me to stop. I thought something was wrong.

 you got off your bicycle and picked a yellow daffodil from the median, kissed me on the cheek and handed it to me. 

It's getting harder to sleep without you next to me.

tulips.

The air is warm!

All the rain has spring finally in bloom.

The grass is green and the flowers are opening and I'm staring over.

I've packed up all my things.

all that remains is my bed, an empty bookshelf, my old guitar and clumps of dust.

It's strange to part ways forever with a home with so many memories and people tied to it.

I'll miss the light flooding the apartment in the early morning, the garage I climbed on top of in the summertime to drink wine and lay against the rough shingles, the stale smokey scent of the laundry room I lived for the 3 warm months and the company of my lovely roommates. 

It's the first step in saying goodbye to Chicago.

I'll be in and out to visit and see the wonderful people and music in the summertime.

and in august I say fare-the-well!

I'll be turning 20 in a month.

King Khan & the Shrines and The Vaselines are playing the same weekend before. 

It will be a glorious celebration of 2 decades. 

LOST:

 A BLACK LEATHER BOUND NOTEBOOK WITH PAGES FALLING OUT

 It is filled cover to cover with 3 months worth of dreams, plans, poetry and secrets.

Now it is missing. probably on a curb somewhere in wicker park covered in snow, where I last saw it in my bag next to my pint of whiskey. 

I'm extremely upset to lose something that I've wrote in every day since this year began.

At the least I hope someone finds it and reads it and enjoys it.

and if YOU happen to stumble upon it, please read and return.

Thank you.